Cruel Life #2

This is frustrating. I know the professor said that we were going to get used to doing it, but I do not like it already. I wanted to use English 101 as a chance to stay away from the Internet, but this whole blogging thing came up the first day of class. Great! Another reason to stay up at night. I Cant Really Afford That.
C: Quit yapping your trap. You wine about everything.
Me: It is You again.



Drawn From Google

I began to think what it will be like to have a girlfriend. I do not really have close friends since forever. Maybe this is my chance to feel close to someone again. A little voice in my head began to tell me, "Don't be STUPID!" I ran back as fast as I could. When I caught up to her, I said the magic words that only some girls like to hear from a specific guy. "Do you want to go out with me?" She smiled so happy and just nodded a yes. as the light turned green for her, she said bye and crossed the street. I too went back and crossed my street to go back home. I felt like the happiest boy in the world. That whole week, I just could not stop talking about her. I told most of my "so called friends" because i could not keep my mouth shut. By the end of that day, everyone knew about it. That Friday, before Winter break, I spend a whole week making her a poem in cursive, and a box with with the shape of a rose on top. I also bought her a bracelet. She had so many on her hand already, but i wanted to get her one anyway. I think she liked it. She gave me a peck on the cheek that day. My first foreign kiss in the cheek. It was worth it.I made it special specifically for her. I even drew her a picture. I thought about her a lot. I remember I saw her at Kmart on a Black Friday sale they had. I pretended not to notice her, but I did anyway. I remember that day. I slept at six thirty in the morning. It was now our Winter break. I asked my cousin to let me use her phone because I really wanted to communicate with her somehow. I texted her at least once a day. Yes I did not have a phone, and i still do not. I tried visiting her twice, but she was never home when I had the chance. When we came back to school, I was just waiting for Valentine's Day.


It Was On That Friday, Which Became Special

I wanted to do something special. I made her a really nice card, but I had no idea what to write in it. I got advice from my neighbor. She knew all of these corny things in Spanish. Anyway, I wrote what my neighbor told me. It was like love here, love there, and love everywhere. I went along with it because I actually really liked her by that time. I gave her the card, and a stuffed, soft dog. She was happy, but the days after, she was just acting strange. Valentine's Day was a Tuesday. After That, I did not see her as much any more. Then she tried to avoid me. On Friday, her friend told me that it was over. I had no reason whatsoever. Then, her friend told me that Stephany's close cousin had died, and that "She felt that she could not love again." I believed it, until Serena told me that Stephany cheated on me. Stephany said she liked me a lot. This was on the weekend. She said she was ready to take me back. I was relieved, until she already had a new boyfriend by Tuesday. I was shocked. Maybe because Serena, her "so called friend," told me that Stephany cheated on me. I did not want to believe it, but that rumor spread around. My reputation went down, and people began to think wrong of us two. After that, I did not really care if i had a girlfriend or not. I only relied on myself for company. I have been a loner for a while, but at least I still had the good academic standards. I remember asking her How many boyfriends she had. She told me she did not remember, but like about ten. That freaked me out because she was my first. Then I thought, "This is not going to last." I was sad the first day, you know, like a little girl, but then i was happy again the next day. I was glad she broke up with me. I realized that it takes your time away to be with someone. I did not have that time. After THAT happened, we said hi like, once in a while. We still do. She said she will never forget me. Lies. I know she did already. All I know is, she is single now. She had broken up with her old boyfriend to go out with me. She told me. She never hugged me again, even tho I still see her every day. I did my research. She told me that she went out with that other boy because he liked her. All she told me was, "I said yes to him because I didn't want to break his heart. I would not break anybody's heart." What she did not realize was, She broke MY heart. *

In Memory - SL<3